Yes to:
Snuggling with friends
Dinner with Camila & Noelle
Dinner with Camila & Noelle
Park Slope Yoga
Lunch in Bryant Park
Visit to the ICP
Pancakes & coffee with Julia, Camila & Josh
Dinner with Grandma & Poppop (I discovered that my grandparents use the phrase 'toy boy' - which, it goes without saying, is a variation on 'boy toy')
People in the city are much nicer than I recall. Everyone was super helpful on my journey from JFK to BK on Sunday. This trip is already surreal and satisfying. I'm surrounded by thoughtful, kind, funny people who I love and who love me back.
I am blessed with a family that really accepts me for who I am. No matter what I do, they offer support and only wish me the best. And I have friends who want to do and talk about all kinds of things, from the serious and heartfelt to the silly and playful. I laughed more in the past two days than I have in the past six months.
This is precisely what I needed. I needed to remember, and experience, abundant love. For a while now, there has been a tremendous void, a real lack of love and trust and loyalty. Confronting that is like being in a small plane and having the hatch open suddenly, and dropping out and down into the howling nothingness.
But, now I'm here, if only for another week, and I'm just trying to soak it all up so I can return to Portland a little calmer, more levelheaded, and with a bit more courage.
This is precisely what I needed. I needed to remember, and experience, abundant love. For a while now, there has been a tremendous void, a real lack of love and trust and loyalty. Confronting that is like being in a small plane and having the hatch open suddenly, and dropping out and down into the howling nothingness.
But, now I'm here, if only for another week, and I'm just trying to soak it all up so I can return to Portland a little calmer, more levelheaded, and with a bit more courage.
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