31.1.10

dreams as of late

i have been dreaming with anger, fear and frustration. the outstanding subject matter in my dreams has been racism, sexism, and violence. last night i dreamed that two men attacked me by a riverbank. i dreamed that my brother and my ex-boyfriend were smoking cigarettes in my bedroom, and my ex-boyfriend's father stood in front of his son's face so i couldn't yell directly at it.

i woke up and took a shower to rinse off all of the residual negativity that had accrued during the long night. but there are feelings you cannot shake. i still feel wound tight, in my head and in my shoulders.

 

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